Day 21 - 1 Day to Departure

Tomorrow I'm leaving for New York to meet my niece. First it's a stop in Spartanburg, SC to visit my sister-in-law (and save on a hotel room) then it's to Cuncinnatus. I'm pretty stoked about it and I'm sure I'll have a decent time.

So the updates have been a little slow. I apologize for that as I've been pretty busy lately in prepping for the trip. At this point I have a few odds and ends to tie up, mainly making some faxes, depositing some checks, boarding the cat, and getting an oil change and wheel balance and rotation.

We take a lot of things on faith. We have faith that our cars will start when we need them to do so, we have faith that we won't oversleep and be late for whatever appointments need to be met in the morning, we have faith that our hearts won't stop before the next beat. Of course, these are our more base faiths. There are more substantial faiths out there, such as our kids making the correct decisions and for many, faith in a power beyond our own.

It's those more mentally substantial faiths that can also cause us anxiety when doubt appears. The trick is finding a way to assuage that doubt and restore our faith. For the example of the kids, it could be something as simple as being able to observe their behavior when they don't know they're being observed. In the higher power, well, that one is a lot more tricky, but for many that faith is reaffirmed in many different ways.

There is one thing in which I have a lot of faith. I'm sorry, but I will have to decline to mention what that one thing is, but let me assure you, dear reader, that it is something I hold very dear. That faith is shared by another. But sometimes on the other end doubt seems to cloud that faith. Why this is I do not know, but it's there. This has been talked about before, but I discovered that it happens a lot more than I've believed it to be.

I was told that this was something that I have to accept as I cannot control everything. The big problem I have with that statement is that it is my job to be the hero to this person. Letting this person down is not an option for me - ever. Therefore, I cannot and do not accept.

The one thing I can do to be the hero is the one that cannot be done right now. I'm doing everything I can to get closer to the day when it can be done, but at this point the time is just not right. The person of whom I speak will be reading this. I can only say to you - I let you down once 7 years ago, I will not let you down again.

Hopefully I'll find time to at least drop a line or 2 during the trip. I'll do my best, just please don't give up on me if they are a little infrequent next week. As for now I must get some sleep. Goodnight, everyone.